Friday

March 7, 2010

Friday was a little trying for me. I had to see my husband. I haven’t seen him up close since October 15th, and have only seen him from afar a few times when I have spotted him at the lake.

I think that he must be going through middle-age crazy. He had on a “buff” shirt and he is letting his hair grow out. This is someone who has ALWAYS worn a t-shirt or a button down (if he was going somewhere nice). To see him like this was weird. He’s never had one of those shirts before. That’s how I know that he is trying to “re-invent” himself. There is nothing wrong with this, but I found it amusing that he is doing it now.

I love him. I always will, but I know that the love is not reciprocated. In fact, it hasn’t been for a long time. If I look back, I would say it has probably been about 5 years or so. Definitely over the last 3 years.

I don’t know why I was with him. Perhaps to show him what true love is? I don’t know. One of my life experiences from our time together is how futile life is without Christ. How it is sad and depressing without Him (Christ). How, no matter how much you party, drink and have sex – all of it leaves you EMPTY. It has a deep pit of despair in the middle of it all. That sucks you in. It traps you and keeps you under control of those things and you cannot move forward. You are like a pig that, once it gets cleaned off, goes back into the mud, muck and mire again and again to wallow in it.

I know what Job said, “To bring back his soul from the pit, to be enlightened with the light of the living.” (Job 33:30 KJV). I know this…when you are brought out of it — the pit — everything has a great light to it. Things that used to weigh you down, you run from…and I mean in the opposite direction. I have been to a bar & grill and a country & western place since he has left and the same stuff is still going on there as before. I want to be in a place that is moving and not stagnant. I have to stay away from these pits so that I won’t be like Proverbs 26:10, “As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly.”

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Being Wise

April 22, 2009

“Whoever walks with the wise will become wise; whoever walks with fools will suffer harm.”
Proverbs 13:20

Dear friend, don’t let this bad example influence you. Follow only what is good. Remember that those who do good prove that they are God’s children, and those who do evil prove that they do not know God.
3 John 11

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The Light

September 21, 2007

The Word gave life to everything that was created, and His life brought light to everyone. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.
John 1:4-5

Great Light of the World by Bebo Norman

Sometimes at night
I am afraid
I cover my eyes,
Cover my shame
So here in the dark
Broken apart
Come with your light
And fill up my heart

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

The wind of this world
Can push us around
Folding us up
Backing us down
But here in the dark
I’m not alone
So come with your strength
And carry me home

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

My Portion

September 19, 2007

My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
Psalm 73:26


Donald Lawrence & The Tri-City Singers featuring DeWayne Woods

You Were Called…

July 24, 2007

And having chosen them, he [God] called them to come to him. And he gave them right standing with himself, and he promised them his glory.
Romans 8:30

Do you realize that first you were chosen and then you were called? It was our job to accept the call. Thank God he knew that we would respond!

The Greek word in this text is Ejklektov (transliterated as Eklektos). It means the following:
1) Picked out, chosen

a. Chosen by God,

1. to obtain salvation through Christ (1a)

b. Christians are called “chosen or elect” of God

1. The Messiah is called “elect”, as appointed by God to the most exalted office conceivable

2.Choice, select, i.e. the best of its kind or class, excellence preeminent; applied to certain individual Christians.

Source: http://www.studylight.org/lex/grk/view.cgi?number=1588