Friday

March 7, 2010

Friday was a little trying for me. I had to see my husband. I haven’t seen him up close since October 15th, and have only seen him from afar a few times when I have spotted him at the lake.

I think that he must be going through middle-age crazy. He had on a “buff” shirt and he is letting his hair grow out. This is someone who has ALWAYS worn a t-shirt or a button down (if he was going somewhere nice). To see him like this was weird. He’s never had one of those shirts before. That’s how I know that he is trying to “re-invent” himself. There is nothing wrong with this, but I found it amusing that he is doing it now.

I love him. I always will, but I know that the love is not reciprocated. In fact, it hasn’t been for a long time. If I look back, I would say it has probably been about 5 years or so. Definitely over the last 3 years.

I don’t know why I was with him. Perhaps to show him what true love is? I don’t know. One of my life experiences from our time together is how futile life is without Christ. How it is sad and depressing without Him (Christ). How, no matter how much you party, drink and have sex – all of it leaves you EMPTY. It has a deep pit of despair in the middle of it all. That sucks you in. It traps you and keeps you under control of those things and you cannot move forward. You are like a pig that, once it gets cleaned off, goes back into the mud, muck and mire again and again to wallow in it.

I know what Job said, “To bring back his soul from the pit, to be enlightened with the light of the living.” (Job 33:30 KJV). I know this…when you are brought out of it — the pit — everything has a great light to it. Things that used to weigh you down, you run from…and I mean in the opposite direction. I have been to a bar & grill and a country & western place since he has left and the same stuff is still going on there as before. I want to be in a place that is moving and not stagnant. I have to stay away from these pits so that I won’t be like Proverbs 26:10, “As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly.”

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Worship the Lord Your God

January 3, 2008

His word speaking to me today:

“Get out of here, satan,” Jesus told him. “For the Scriptures say, ‘You must worship the Lord Your God; serve only Him.'”
Matthew 4:10

Victory comes from you, O LORD. May your blessings rest on your people.
Psalm 3:8

One Year Bible reading for today found here. 

One Year Bible Journey

January 2, 2008

His Word speaking to me today:

Now the serpent was the shrewdest of all the creatures the LORD God had made. “Really?” he asked the woman. “Did God really say you must not eat any of the fruit in the garden?”
Genesis 3:1

Each year since 2002 I have read through the Bible. This year will be no different. I do this because it is only through God’s word can I know how to live like God wants me to live. It is a personal choice as I have been called and chosen to be His. It is only natural that I would give to Him my time for all that He has done for me. I typically get my cup of coffee and sit down to his word between 5:15 am and 6:00 am — not that you have to do this, but I enjoy it!!!

Each day this year I will try to place a reference on this blog as to what I am reading in the Bible for that day. I follow the One Year Bible plan that is found here. To help me facilitate this journey I have a One Year Bible. Also, if I find I don’t have time to read it, I can listen to it via the internet or on my ipod at the One Year Bible On Radio. And if you want to connect with other believers on the journey, I would highly recommend Mike’s blog: www.oneyearbibleblog.com.

You will find only a small portion of scripture as to what I write down in my journal as I am reading His word. Sometimes He also tells me what I need to do that day in my schedule and I write that down. I want to run with whatever he gives me this year in 2008.

If you would like to join me again this year, today’s reading can be found here.

Take Note…

December 18, 2007

Take note: I will come as unexpectedly as a thief! Blessed are all who are watching for me, who keep their robes ready so they will not need to walk naked and ashamed.
Revelation 16:15

You Have Made Me Glad

September 28, 2007

Probably my favorite Worship album is Hillsong’s Blessed. This particular song, “You Have Made Me Glad” has gotten me through some very tough spots in my marriage. But thank God — he has delivered me from all fear (although sometimes satan likes to think he has taken it but he hasn’t — PRAISE GOD!).

This is what the inside cover says for the album Blessed:

“This recording has been birthed out of a revelation in Psalm 84 which declares that those who set their hearts on pilgrimage, who love God’s House, will be blessed. God’s heart is to BLESS you. He wants to open the windows of heaven over your life and cause everthing you do to flourish. As you worship with these songs, allow the words of Psalm 84 to become your prayer – that you might be blessed to be a blessing.”

Psalm 84

For the choir director: A psalm of the descendants of Korah, to be accompanied by a stringed instrument.

1 How lovely is your dwelling place,
O Lord of Heaven’s Armies.
2 I long, yes, I faint with longing
to enter the courts of the Lord.
With my whole being, body and soul,
I will shout joyfully to the living God.
3 Even the sparrow finds a home,
and the swallow builds her nest and raises her young
at a place near your altar,
O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, my King and my God!
4 What joy for those who can live in your house,
always singing your praises.
Interlude

5 What joy for those whose strength comes from the Lord,
who have set their minds on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem.
6 When they walk through the Valley of Weeping,
it will become a place of refreshing springs.
The autumn rains will clothe it with blessings.
7 They will continue to grow stronger,
and each of them will appear before God in Jerusalem.

8 O Lord God of Heaven’s Armies, hear my prayer.
Listen, O God of Jacob.
Interlude

9 O God, look with favor upon the king, our shield!
Show favor to the one you have anointed.

10 A single day in your courts
is better than a thousand anywhere else!
I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God
than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.
11 For the Lord God is our sun and our shield.
He gives us grace and glory.
The Lord will withhold no good thing
from those who do what is right.
12 O Lord of Heaven’s Armies,
what joy for those who trust in you.

I personally have seen Darlene Zschech in action when she ministered in our church. She is so humble and very gracious.

Next week — I’m on vacation at … DISNEYWORLD. May you enjoy this song all week until I am back, Lord willing.

Lyrics to You Have Made Me Glad:

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I’ll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There’s none I desire beside You
You have made me glad
And I’ll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need